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Ademidun Ajiwe

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Ademidun Ajiwe

Thursday 2 July 2020

Letter To The HEART

Dear heart, why beat for one who feels you not?
You crave dearly for that which seems nut
Day and night you become unrest for that who gives no fuck
You leave behind the heart that cherishes you so duck

Dear heart, why run so fast after that which doesn't wanna be hunted?
You left the craving heart lonely and feel unwanted?
You go berserk and cannot be stopped
You pound so hard against your abode

Dear heart, why give satisfaction to mock?
I mean, why in an unwanted place stuck?
Why all of a sudden when you were meant to move, get stuck?

Listen, dear heart, perhaps you let go
So you can feel love and peace though
So you won't feel so low
Not saying you later became stone
But you be wary and get a hold

You own not the beholder
You could feel loved yet be a stranger
The aura is just so sweet, I mean sad I know
Then you should know to say No
This is a Letter To The HEART

Ademidun Ajiwe

Thursday 2 July 2020

Bullies

Those I couldn't talk back at
They were the elephant, and I was the rat
They were my bullies

Those I couldn't dare look in the face
That were the spade of ace
They were my bullies

To them who made themselves my superior
And in all ways made me the inferior
They were my bullies

To them which with everything oppresses me
They were not just bad to me, they were so mean
They were my bullies

To those who prefer seeing me bawl
And if I didn't, I should be ready for a brawl
They were my bullies

To those who drop filthy things on my seat
They made an artifice to make me sit
They were my bullies

Kerfuffle I tried to deter
But then, they always beg to differ
They were my bullies

Those whose happiness was to body shame
To make me feel less of my self was there ultimate aim
They were my bullies

To those who made me ask questions about my essence
They treated me like I had no sense
They were my bullies

When I thought I was right, they made a mockery
They always give me the wave to feel eerie
They were my bullies

When I walk in silence
They ask me why my mute is
They were my bullies

To those who crushed on my self-esteem
The leader of them all whose name was Tim
They were my bullies

To those who would never let me be
They were always where I didn't want them to, just like a bee
They were my bullies

So I decided to try my best
If actually, they would give it a rest
Perhaps I would get their est
But what do I need to do first
I had to withdraw.

I thought everything was over at my age
When I could see them insight was like a mirage
I thought I could finally be in an oasis
An oasis where I couldn't be torn into pieces

Suddenly from nowhere, they bulge
I flee, even when I didn't feel the urge

At the peek when I thought everything was over
That I thought everything was ending
At the peek when I thought I would finally be free
Then was I in a captive
Of people I got to know would never let go
I really wanted to be happy though
I guess that was too much for them to grant

I was captured in their grief
I begged them to let me make a brief
A brief that:
I just want to live, I want peace
From these beasts, I want to be free From all these people who were my Bullies.

Suddenly it was black, it was a total blackout
At this point, I knew it was the End!!

Ademidun Ajiwe

Thursday 2 July 2020

Captive

I leave my suffering behind to find peace
I leave the bondage behind to be at ease
I ponder in the day and night
My foot that walk leads me aright

I want to shout from within
I was told my happiness lies therein
With that which I use to wander
Was held in what I call captive
I fought and struggled but rather
My actions, dos, and don'ts were inactive

It was in a place where no one knows
Even if you find and seek answers
All it is was just the holes
That we thought was ours

It was like a mere fantasy
but somehow it seems real
It was but all I could feel and see
I was really tired and felt so ill
I was about giving up
But something kept me on
It kept me going and moving on
That this struggle isn't for one
But to be for all
That together this can be won.

This is supposed to be the last note
But this is the beginning of the previous said
We are faithful than taking an oath
We aren't two but one instead
We aren't of hate but of love
We aren't to fight but of a dove
That we were erred
And we feel irked.

If peace could reign
It would be preferred to showers of rain.
And this be noted that-
Captivity isn't peaceful, it's troubling!!