PAINFUL SMILES

Joshua Makolo

Biography: My name is Joshua Makolo, mostly known as Joemaks. I'm a poet by and with passion!

Joshua Makolo

Sunday 21 August 2022

Beauty is in the eyes of he who sees what's beautiful

That's what they say!

So when you look at me

You tend to say:

You may see a happy face

You may see a toothy grin

You may see a light in my eyes

But that is all a thin mask

I want to break down

I want to let it out

I want to stop acting like I'm fine

Because I'm NOT

Behind my smile is pain

In my eyes is a tiny spark of hurt

I hide it the best I can

Behind this daily mask

I want to break something

I want to scream for someone to hear

Will I try to bother someone?

I am a burden

I was made only to help

Not to stand in the way

It doesn't matter how I feel

I don't know why

Am I the only one that feels this pain?

Pain that makes you shake

Pain that hurts so much you CAN'T cry

I just want to be happy all of the time

God, why can't I be happy?

I'm tired of acting

I'm tired of saying I'm fine...